tonight is prom. im not really looking forward to such a tirivial human event but i guess if no one wants to quit bugging me i will go.

Ok so a lot of people have been really supportive of my break up...like they've been here for me. But other people need to either go away or be nicer. I hate that I've been called whiny, It's only been a week! I've been trying so hard to pick myself back up. I've tried everything. I'm going to start playing WoW soon and hopefully that will occupy me. I just want to say I'm sorry for being so whiny and bitchy but I don't hold back my feelings. I'm sad. Deal with it. Be happy it's not you. Jeez.
~Alaina

I miss my boyfriend so much. I just want us to be okay. He and I seemed fine all weekend (hugging, kissing, saying I love you, etc.) but then when I asked if we were okay, he said not really. I'm so depressed. And I haven't heard from him all day... I feel so clingy but I love him so much. Too much, sometimes. But it isn't like I don't have a throng of guys after me. I've gotten messages, texts, everything from anyone. They all want to hit on me; see what I'm like and if I'm worth their time. Well, I'm not. I won't give them chances. It would be cruel and unhealthy. I love my boyfriend. Even if we're having a rough patch, I truly believe this love is until the end. Every great love story needs a conflict or else no one needs saving or true love. I'm prepared to battle the universe for my one true love: Robert.
~Alaina

I can't tell what is going on anymore. I'm so confused. But I'm going to the mall with my bro today so maybe I'll do some therapeutic shopping. =)
~Alaina

Hi, this is my new blog.
So I'd like to talk about my feelings... It's crazy how one minute your life seems so stable then the next you're completely falling to pieces. My boyfriend and I were fine. We've been together for 3 years and, of course, had our ups and downs. But this time is much different.