Update on My Lack of Romance and Job, and College

I know I haven't updated this in a while. I've been really busy because I'm moving and stuff... Robert broke up with me again. He has trust issues with me and I don't understand them but it's his choice to not trust the person he's shared his life with for the past 3 years. I hope he comes back eventually. I really love him and would NEVER in a million years cheat on him. Anyway, I'm moving. To where? A few blocks from my old house. How exciting. My best friend and his fiancee want me to move into their apartment. They have a spare room that is their son's but he's never in there, he sleeps in bed with them lol. He's so adorable. It's 4am here...I can't over sleep. I have a piano lesson at 3pm. I'm so lazy. I need a job! I start community college in the fall on August 21. I'm a Criminal Justice major. Well, that's about it for an update. =)

So I'm waiting "patiently" for Robert to get back. I still don't know what is going on in our relationship but I figure it'll be ok....hopefully. It all seems promising. But that might just be my optimism trying to weasel it's way into my head. Ugh. ~Alaina

tonight is prom. im not really looking forward to such a tirivial human event but i guess if no one wants to quit bugging me i will go.

Ok so a lot of people have been really supportive of my break up...like they've been here for me. But other people need to either go away or be nicer. I hate that I've been called whiny, It's only been a week! I've been trying so hard to pick myself back up. I've tried everything. I'm going to start playing WoW soon and hopefully that will occupy me. I just want to say I'm sorry for being so whiny and bitchy but I don't hold back my feelings. I'm sad. Deal with it. Be happy it's not you. Jeez.
~Alaina

I miss my boyfriend so much. I just want us to be okay. He and I seemed fine all weekend (hugging, kissing, saying I love you, etc.) but then when I asked if we were okay, he said not really. I'm so depressed. And I haven't heard from him all day... I feel so clingy but I love him so much. Too much, sometimes. But it isn't like I don't have a throng of guys after me. I've gotten messages, texts, everything from anyone. They all want to hit on me; see what I'm like and if I'm worth their time. Well, I'm not. I won't give them chances. It would be cruel and unhealthy. I love my boyfriend. Even if we're having a rough patch, I truly believe this love is until the end. Every great love story needs a conflict or else no one needs saving or true love. I'm prepared to battle the universe for my one true love: Robert.
~Alaina

I can't tell what is going on anymore. I'm so confused. But I'm going to the mall with my bro today so maybe I'll do some therapeutic shopping. =)
~Alaina

Hi, this is my new blog.
So I'd like to talk about my feelings... It's crazy how one minute your life seems so stable then the next you're completely falling to pieces. My boyfriend and I were fine. We've been together for 3 years and, of course, had our ups and downs. But this time is much different.